my brain on obsession

I try to avoid obsessions. They’re dangerous.

There are many things I can become obsessed about – books, characters, whole story worlds, movies, causes, people in need, new ideas, adventures, injustices – sometimes even friends. Practically anything invested with any kind of emotion has the potential to turn me from this…

sunny smiley

… to this …

smiley driven

– a single-minded, driven, compulsive, zombie-esque being. It’s ugly. It’s raw. It’s dangerous for anyone who gets in the way. It’s a hostile takeover. I have no say in anything concerning my life while in the grip of an obsession. Much easier to not let it happen in the first place.

It’s very inconvenient that I’ve been taken over by one just before Christmas. It’ll interfere. It already is.

Downton Abbey has arrived in German TV and they showed the whole first season on one weekend (that’s seven episodes). And because I have an imagination that runs on 500 km/h at the least encouragement, I’ve already spent one whole night dreaming about it, a whole day having imaginary talks with the characters, worrying about their future, their well-being, their happiness and being as nervous as before a date for all of today and now, after having watched the last two episodes tonight, I fear that the next night full of detailed, long and in-depth dreams is just ahead.

Shouldn’t I be writing about Christmas? Traditions, food, family, how lovely everything is and how wonderful our dog smells now that we’ve washed off all the layers of dried-on mud with camomile baby shampoo? Probably. Maybe. I guess. Whatever.

But I just really, really, REALLY *need* to know that Anna and Bates will turn out happy!!! (Don’t anybody dare tell me! No spoilers! πŸ™‚ )

… it’s just so very exhausting, carrying a full cast of people in my mind and heart over whose fates I have no influence whatsoever…

P.S.: If you have no idea what I’m talking about, I encourage you to watch this show.


About wordsurfer

writer, ex-teacher, human rights believer & fighter, traveller, adventure-seeker, freedom lover, global citizen. big on daydreams, less so on reality.

Posted on December 23, 2012, in day-to-day and tagged , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 6 Comments.

  1. I’m not an obsessive person by nature, but I love, love, love Downton Abbey. I can’t wait for season three to air in the U.S.

    • Oh, fellow enthusiast! Yeay! Isn’t it wonderful? I love the characters and the attention to detail and they employ several really cool story-telling techniques. Two nights in a row dreaming about Anna (the parlourmaid) – I’m crossing all my fingers that she’ll be happy… Also, the end of the first season is really striking – they’ve all been talking about the coming of the war, but then, when it’s officially announced, everybody is really shocked and afraid and I almost cried thinking about the thousands of people who died in that war… 😦
      Not a very cheery thing to think about on Christmas Eve, sorry… But the romance is great as well! πŸ™‚

      • I was hooked from the first episode. It has everything – drama, mystery, intrigue, humor, and romance. It’s one of the very few shows that I watch where I feel completely wrapped up in these characters. I care about them and wonder where the story is going to take them. Plus how can you just not love Cousin Violet. Every episode I laugh out loud.

        I want to go Netflix season one again…

        I hope you have a very Merry Christmas with all of your siblings.

  2. I love Downton Abbey–got hooked on it when I moved to London!

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